Like a moth and her lamplight, this little one
looks for a bosom. Before he could
barely stand on his own, legs trembling
like saplings in a storm, his mouth motions
toward his momma. A mandible on a muzzle
smelling for the scent of home. Just minutes ago,
his snout, with nostrils pulsing awake,
emerged with small front hoofs, followed by
the rest of him, pushed out of her —
slick, lithesome, whole. I held him, my arms
instantly stiffening into a poor man’s palanquin.
My heart softened like sunrise, tears brimming
in the corners where blood and light meet.
Was I just witness to a meaning of life?
This is the closest I will come to being
a mother. Holding a breathing body dependent
on another breathing body. His warmth, the closest
thing to touching a star. My own body dependent
on modern medicine to survive. She called out to him,
her first born, this wonder of a creature, so alive,
so daring. His first cry, an assertion to matter
in this world. When do we lose our way
from the wild? His cloven feet find ground
for his first forage, mother’s manna,
colostrum to flourish. She bathes him
with her tongue, unearthing fur
fine as the powder of moth wings.
He struggles to latch.
I struggle to help him.
Two animals trying to thrive.
First appeared in Women of Appalachia Project’s Women Speak, Volume 7
This was a lovely poem. Thank you so much for the wonderful images. I felt as if I was there. I look forward to following you and reading more of your work.